Bitterness

How awful is it? Awful, Nastiness, Not Pretty

It rears it ugly little head when I am feeling sorry for myself. When life struggles become more then I want to talk about.

I catch myself , I sense it in others. I wonder how do I travel this journey and not allow myself to go there. I don’t want to become a bitter and angry person. But evertime I turn around , something gets in the way of making things easier simplier

I think the bitterness is the fustruation trying to release itself.

I have decided that my goal in this quest of dealing with WHATEVER IT IS they can’t figure out (oh that was bitter)… is not to come out bitter and tainted in the end. That somehow I will be able to grow as a person and appreciate that which has been placed in my path. I know it will be easier said then done and there are going to be moments when something bitter will come out of my mouth .. or aleast run through my head.

What is my first step to doing this?

Well I am going to admit that it exists. Free it from the depths of my soul …Sorry I know that sounds corney. But how else do I decribe it. I will watch for it in my actions and my words and I will forgive myself for going there. I will talk about whatever it is that is bothering me and not bury it, hopefully that way it will not smolder into bitterness.

This thread will be a work in process… So I will be back on my process….