Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Let's keep it real

You know, I admit I spend many years pretending to be OK I wanted everyone to think that I was healthy and strong Because Illness was a sign of weakness and I was anything but weak,.

Then one day a light bulb went off .. I was spending way to much energy at pretending. No wonder I was so exhausted. If I look back at all I have endured in the last few years. Living with chronic illness is definitely not for the weak.

I vowed to keep it real ( or to try ) to conserve my energy to respect my body and my mind. I realized I was only pretending to make those around me more comfortable

So now that means telling it like it is
No I don’t feel well today.
It’s not a good day.
Yes I am fighting frustration

Smiling .. is not happening Not today. It’s too exhausting.

Oh and if I seem angry today. Well Yeah. Maybe I am that too.

Let’s be real, It is okay to have bad days. It’s Okay that I don’t feel well or I am frustrated Because I know that tomorrow will be a better day.

2 comments:

Kristin said...

very well put - i feel like this many days...but then a better day is usually right around the corner

zara said...

Great words Kristin. you said it so well and they are so true. .